i have a very important point about christians…
be realistic with your expectations. other believers WILL disappoint you and the church is made up of real sinners, including ourselves.
this is from my previous entry and i feel i should talk about it. i have to say this because i have a lot of non-christian friends. and i know that some have had many an encounter with “church”. many people in my life, especially my own father, have had experiences with hypocrites. and it weighs my heart down. because these are people i love… that don’t understand why i believe what i do. they don’t know what it’s like to try to have a relationship with God. they don’t understand how hard it is for me to die to myself everyday in order to try to be a decent christian. and how much i truly fail at this and have to pick myself up, dust myself off, and start over again. daily.
it’s sobering.
and on top of that… to be ridiculed and judged for it. when i haven’t pushed anything upon anyone. unless you call living and breathing and speaking out of love and concern for your life pushing my beliefs on people. i don’t know. maybe it is and i just don’t know it. all i know is it’s something i couldn’t push on anyone if i even tried. it’s something that is appointed by God for each and every person in this world to choose. that is called freewill. (we can get into a discussion about that… but it’s not the important issue)
i know one thing. i love you all. no matter what. and i never want to disappoint any of you. but i certainly will. i will break your hearts at some point… knowingly and unknowingly. i pray everyday that i don’t… but i will. and i am sorry if and when i do. and i am sorry if i have… it was never my intention.
i am learning… everyday… to be a christian. a child of God. to be made into His likeness. as perfect as He is and as much as i will never be able to acheive this on my own and in this lifetime… i will try until my dying day.
because i love you… each and everyone of you… and i want you to know what true love is.
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i love your entries.
but not as much as i love you.
miss you much, lorena brownsugah.
i love you very much mizochelle brownsugah… you are such a little spark in my life… you don’t even know.
Ahh, this post made my day. Seriously, I look up to you and love you so much lolo..
i love you, too, kat. **hug**