a letter i wrote to a dear friend and brother
i know that God has put you in my life for a reason. and this is clear now that i have mentioned what i have been through and you have replied to that with a similar circumstance.
like you, i have seen such wonderful things through this experience and circumstance. if anything i have learned so much about God and who He really is. through suffering He shows us who He is the most. because i think He wants to show us how it feels for Him. His passion is for our lives and He suffered greatly for it. i feel like abraham… but i ask where my ram in the bush is. God gave His son… so, for now i am going to sacrifice my purpose. because right now i think God wants me to learn so much more than i bargained for. and i cannot let the purpose become greater than that of my passion to follow Him. but because i know God is not a liar and truly wants to bless me, i am believing for a ram in the bush… but i just don’t know when that will happen.
i know how it feels… like everyone is saying,”how come it hasn’t happened yet if it’s God?” or even that you failed. when it’s actually the opposite. the truth is that you (we) wholeheartedly pursued the calling and purpose God gave you. and you sit there asking,”why is everyone else more blessed? why does it seem like everyone passed the test and their test wasn’t even that difficult… not even a fight… what about me?” but because of your faith… because of that trust… His blessings are going to be so much more than you even imagined. you have passed the test. God knows that you will follow Him wherever He wants to take you. no matter how treacherous the path. you will face anything. sword and shield in hand… you will lead in an army for Him.
i feel like this is more than just our passions. more than our desires… God’s desires that He put in our hearts. i feel like He is building us up for so much more. the days are numbered and we don’t have much time left. He needs individuals… called… appointed… annointed. He is making us warriors. because when that hour comes… who will be able to stand against the face of ultimate danger? who will stand up in His name? if it is you alone… then everything was worth it… for just one soul to fight for Him against all odds. just one is all He needs. He can do anything.
(name of person)… we are His chosen. and i am glad to know that you… of all people… are part of the army i fight with. that gives me so much more passion to press on.
i can’t even find the words to say to you… because thank you isn’t enough. but i can call you my brother. and i can say this… i love you.
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