i am awake. i am alive.

By: thelovelylo

Aug 11 2006

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“I will call upon the LORD, who is worthy to be praised; So shall I be saved from my enemies.” -Psalm 18:3 (NKJV)

“Give unto the LORD the glory due to His name; Worship the LORD in the beauty of holiness.” -Psalm 29:2 (NKJV)

i have been dealing with an incredible amount of stress and attack.
sometimes, i wonder (or i guess it’s really worry) if i have brought it upon myself.
i pray about it night and day. all day… everyday.
i pray for guidance, wisdom and understanding as God would have it.
because i know that even some things are beyond my comprehension.
i know that my mind’s capacity is limited.
so i trust my God, the Almighty Father and Creator of all things.
i trust Him to let the things that happen to me happen because i know there is greatness in it.
i know that the devil will stop at nothing to wear me out so that i may give up…
but my hope is in the Lord.

i’m tired. i’m exhausted. i am on my last thread.
and in my time of need… as i pray that i receive even just a little amount of comfort…

this is what the Holy Spirit gave me:

God requires more of you… for HIS glory.

what is really happening… is you are always wondering about your worth. it’s affecting your relationships. it’s affecting how you perceive situations. it’s affecting how you see your circumstance (in the natural). the enemy is constantly bombarding you and hitting you in the gut concerning this because he knows that is where he’ll do the most damage. he knows it’s your number one issue.. but God is the One who needs to fight for you… stop trying to just take the blows. don’t be ashamed of who you are. don’t be ashamed of how God is building you up. it looks bad now, but that is because the bad makes the glory He is due a million times better in the end. and THAT is when you will understand and know God’s perfect work. God doesn’t want you to suffer because HE is long-suffering. He needs you to know that about Him and that is why your wholehearted trust is necessary. He wants to know that YOU believe HIM to be WORTHY. because He is worthy of ALL GLORY and HONOR and PRAISE. He is the WORTHY One. and if he dwells in your own heart… THAT makes you worthy. not by your own work. not how other people perceive you. not by the worlds standards. nothing but God… and God ALONE.

i say… amen to that.