oh wow… what an answer to my prayers…
“But now the righteousness of God has been revealed independently and altogether apart from the Law, although actually it is attested by the Law and the Prophets, Namely, the righteousness of God which comes by believing with personal trust and confident reliance on Jesus Christ (the Messiah). [And it is meant] for all who believe. For there is no distinction, Since all have sinned and are falling short of the honor and glory which God bestows and receives. [All] are justified and made upright and in right standing with God, freely and gratuitously by His grace (His unmerited favor and mercy), through the redemption which is [provided] in Christ Jesus.” -Romans 3:21-24 (AMP)
wow… i really think that the daily bible verse thingie on my laptop knows what i pray and think…
it freaks me out.
hahahhahahhahahahah! i’m just playing.
but maybe it’s just God hears my prayer and answers.
yeah?
so… i have been worrying too much lately.
i prayed it over after writing my last entry.
i also have received prayer and counsel from loved ones.
and my answers came swiftly.
thank you all so much. i really appreciate it.
thank you to aaron and dennis for being my IMMEDIATE BLESSING.
i prayed for you guys earlier in the afternoon and God answered.
i don’t deserve the things the Lord provides… i know that. but He is good.
i have taken a small step to lay down my pride. and only hope that this will continue.
i never expected anyone to understand why i have made these decisions.
if i were on the other end i think i would think i was crazy.
but i’m on THIS end.
and i DESIRE something more.
i will SUFFER at a great cost in order to give God glory and honor and praise.
it is my PASSION that i am chasing wholeheartedly after.
i can see that i am not the only one who suffers… but… if i don’t do this…
i will never feel worthy of being a christian.
i am taking up my cross…
i remember saying,”Lord… i would do anything… anything to pursue my passions…”
and so i will. i will keep my own promise. and He will keep His.
i have sacrificed so much in the past 6 years… in order to know the face of the Lord
and He has, is and will bless me for obedience.
i trust Him so much…
i am willing to get to that point…
the point where it gets so bad… that when something happens,
i will be able to say it was ALL God and not me.
i am VERY blessed to have the family and friends that i have.
to know that people love me and are concerned for me.
and i despise the fact that they grieve about me.
i never wanted that.
i just want them to know that i love them very much.
and that i FULLY trust God, Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit.
and that’s pretty much all i can say about that.
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