i am awake. i am alive.

By: thelovelylo

Jul 22 2006

Category: Uncategorized

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what am i going to do?

i’ve done all that i could think of… but i fear that it wasn’t enough. i have made these decisions because i was certain they were the right ones… but honestly, i don’t really know much. i never want to be a poor ambassador… but what do i do now that i find myself in a circumstance that has no simple solution? how do i fix a situation so big that i can’t walk around it to assess the damges and the repairs needed? i am praying that God comes to my rescue and does something BIG. i didn’t want to worry anyone. i didn’t want to bother anyone. i don’t know where to turn to. i don’t know where to run to. i feel like i am in a well. stuck. i feel alone even though i know very well that i am not alone at all. shame and fear are sinking in. i can’t let that happen, but it’s so difficult to hold on to hope when you are clouded by circumstance, and i feel like my faith is the size of a mustard seed being choked by weeds.

i need prayer. God, help me.