blessings and joy!!!
“Blessed is the man that walketh not in the counsel of the ungodly, nor standeth in the way of sinners, nor sitteth in the seat of the scornful. But his delight is in the law of the LORD; and in his law doth he meditate day and night. And he shall be like a tree planted by the rivers of water, that bringeth forth his fruit in his season; his leaf also shall not wither; and whatsoever he doeth shall prosper.” -Psalm 1:1-3 (KJV)
“Ointment and perfume rejoice the heart: so doth the sweetness of a man’s friend by hearty counsel.” -Proverbs 27:9
in the midst of what seems like an unclear path,
i find that i still have countless blessings from the LORD.
sometimes, i feel bad when i don’t spend time with certain people.
i feel bad because i feel it’s pretty much a judgment on my part.
and it’s not a question of enjoying their company.
there is no doubt about that. i love spending time with people.
but… there has to be a line drawn somewhere.
there are certain things i cannot tolerate for too long.
and certain situations that i cannot put myself in.
it’s because they remind me of where i have been.
and believe me, i need a reminder every now and again.
but i only need it for a moment’s time.
because my flashbacks are too strong and i start to feel the shame of who i was.
of my incredibly unwise decisions and the things i got myself into.
THANK GOD FOR GRACE!!!
but…
it seems that in the midst of something like that.
God is absolutely faithful.
and He blesses me with FRIENDS.
or i should say FAMILY???
when aaron told me that he was going to home to visit i thought that it would put a damper on my weekend.
I LOVE YOU, AARON!!! AND I DID MISS YOU TERRIBLY!!!
but… seriously… the people i got to spend time with…
they were like aaron!!! but there were 9 of them!!!
it was incredible!!!
i had so much fun. i mean. it should be illegal to have that much fun.
i haven’t laughed that much in so long… if i have even ever laughed that much.
i really felt like my side would split. and my throat is still sore today.
I JUST MET THESE PEOPLE…
but you know when you meet certain people and feel like you’ve known them pretty much your whole life?
yeah… for me it’s an indescribable feeling of overwhleming joy and excitement!
i felt like… yeah. i am pretty sure that was what it was like at times for the apostles…
it would have been minus judas and Jesus though because there were 11 of us in all…
and we talked about poop almost the whole weekend.
i mean… Jesus doesn’t talk about poop… does He?! 
ANYWAY.
and to top that off… i got to see two of my favorite girls.
liz and laura.
these girls have known me for too long.
i haven’t seen them in forever. and we live in the same vicinity.
i am ashamed to say that. it should never be like that.
i don’t know how it happened.
but i realize how deprived i made myself.
this weekend i realized i have sooooooo many friends.
i realize how absolutely RICH i am.
as i sit here and reflect and think about ALL of my FAMILY…
and i UNDERSTAND what proverbs 27:9 means. what it REALLY means.
and i cannot thank God enough for that.
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