i am awake. i am alive.

By: thelovelylo

Jun 14 2006

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“And he said, The things which are impossible with men are possible with God.” -Luke 18:27 (KJV)

i wasn’t getting any sleep.
i’m up.
i dunno.

but here it is.
on my computer.
daily bible verse.
and yes… i have to admit…
i was feeling a bit less faithful…
a bit less hopeful…
and looking at the things right in front of me again.
i’m like a faith roller coaster sometimes.
leave me locked up with my thoughts long enough
and you get thomas instead of paul.

ugh.

why am i being like this?
all i know is that i have been doing a lot lately.
not with other people.
a lot of time to myself and working.
up in this room.
in the past week i haven’t left the house.
(except sunday for softball and to get some food that one day…)

i mean… wow.
i haven’t ever done this.
not to this extent anyway.
i’m like a hermit here.
but i am learning a lot about myself again.
and i am getting a lot of things done.
work related, i.e.

and i am learning slowly how to be with my Heavenly Father…
like i used to be…
only this time…
more intimately.
throughout the day.
not just key prayer.
i’m talking prayer all the time.

prayer is communication with God.

wow… it’s like aaron brought up at our singles group meeting last week.
he read this book out loud.
i think it’s called God’s Blog.
hahaha! go figure.

i just didn’t realize it until now.