i am awake. i am alive.

By: thelovelylo

Jun 08 2006

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“He that hath no rule over his own spirit is like a city that is broken down, and without walls.” -Proverbs 25:28 (KJV)

“Remember, O LORD, thy tender mercies and thy lovingkindnesses; for they have been ever of old. Remember not the sins of my youth, nor my transgressions: according to thy mercy remember thou me for thy goodness’ sake, O LORD.” -Psalm 25:6,7 (KJV)

before you read behind the cut… i am asking for prayer.
i need ALL the prayer i can get right now.
please just pray what the Holy Spirit leads you to pray.

right now i feel absolutely helpless.

i’m tired of people making my job difficult.
i’m tired of people making my life difficult.
(not that my life is supposed to be easy…)
i’m tired of believers letting me down in this aspect.

this is my cross. i’m taking it up.
i have been. and i knew what i was moving into when i took this turn.
i had no idea it was going to be LIKE THIS though.

this is what passion is?
whoa…
my spirit is bipolar at times.
i think that is my own fault for being of little faith sometimes.
i think that is my own fault for fainting.

ugh.

i need to just take a deep breath.
i need to figure this all out.
i need to… that’s just it.

and as cliché as it may sound… i need to pray about it.