i am awake. i am alive.

By: thelovelylo

Apr 14 2006

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“But mine eyes are unto thee, O GOD the Lord: in thee is my trust; leave not my soul destitute. Keep me from the snares which they have laid for me, and the gins of the workers of iniquity. Let the wicked fall into their own nets, whilst that I withal escape.” -Psalm 141:8-10 (KJV)

“But GOD, dear Lord, I only have eyes for you. Since I’ve run for dear life to you, take good care of me. Protect me from their evil scheming, from all their demonic subterfuge. Let the wicked fall flat on their faces, while I walk off without a scratch.” -Psalm 141:8-10 (The Message)

WORTH.

i have a problem with feeling worthy.
(and with current affairs in my life, this is the most evident this statement has ever been for me right now)
i want to be looked upon as a person who accomplishes greatness because of what God has called me to be.
i want to show the world the purpose in which He has for me and my own life.
and ultimately that He has purpose for everyone.

so, when people look at me and my life and start to doubt me and my ablilities…
it strikes a chord that rings through my being with such immensity.
i have to remind myself not act upon what my flesh wants me to say or do.
the Holy Spirit has to step in and remind me of who i am and who i am to be
and the security i have in Christ despite what things may seem.

we all want favor, acceptance, laudation and glory.
we all want the approval of others and gain that through these things.
these are desires that have been instilled in every heart from birth.
and the visible manifestations of these desires are money, power and fame.

but that is what is wrong.
these things are all the things of this world.
these things are fleeting.
they have ability to change, decay, perish and fade.

why would depend on something that isn’t 100% guaranteed to speak for who we are?

i realize that i was created.
i had nothing when i entered into existence in this world,
and i ultimately own nothing while i exist in this world
because i will leave with nothing when i cease to exist in this world.

i was called to carry out a purpose for my Almighty Creator.
and i will carry out that purpose.
no matter what people will say against it.
no matter what people will do to stop me.
no matter what the cost… even my own life.

because i owe Him everything and anything…
because it is all His and for His glory.

HE IS WORTHY.

first, i would like to thank steven for putting up with my child-like spazz sessions
and letting me borrow his power adapter.
he is truly a blessing.
and i think robert redford is incredibly handsome.

also… i forgot how much i love to spend time with shay.
even if her life is so dramatic and we are both really good at freaking out.

here’s a dose of us playing at the apple store…