i am awake. i am alive.

By: thelovelylo

Apr 11 2006

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“Go to the ant, thou sluggard; consider her ways, and be wise: Which having no guide, overseer, or ruler, Provideth her meat in the summer, and gathereth her food in the harvest. How long wilt thou sleep, O sluggard? when wilt thou arise out of thy sleep? Yet a little sleep, a little slumber, a little folding of the hands to sleep: So shall thy poverty come as one that travelleth, and thy want as an armed man.” -Proverbs 6:6-11 (KJV)

wow.
that was a little convicting.
and at the right time.

the reason i am doing this fast is because i realize that i need to focus on a few things.
and that i need to pray more.
if it wasn’t for prayer in my life… i would have nothing to show.
the previous entry is only one of many that i have seen God work in wonders from my moanings and groanings…
because i cried out and fainted to see Him work…
because He knew that in my heart i needed Him to show me His greatness.

so… i want to be like an ant.

think about the ant.
compare its size to what it accomplishes.
the mounds ants build are enormous compared to their size.
and they are so intricate.
and although they all scurry about with no one to administrate,
they all have a specific task and accomplish those jobs.
diligent indeed.
if you happen to step in a mound and don’t notice,
they are on you in no time,
and with one signal…
they all attack at once.
organized indeed.
this is only part of the many things about ants that interest me.
how can there not be a God???

i want to be like the ant.
i want to work diligently.
because i want to be ready for a rainy day.
it will come like a traveller… unexpected.
because i want to be ready for my time in need.
it will be like an armed man… threatening.

i just want to say that last night will be a very memorable night.
(thank you, mr. steven scott)
i saw the emotron.
you just have to see him to understand my shock/amazement/awe/confusion.
he starts out in layers of exercise attire (i.e. wind breaker suit, jogging suit, unitard, underwear).
he sings and a synth plays music. and in between every couple of songs he strips a layer.
at the end… he lights his genital area.

yeah… you read that right.

i love this guy. and i think i will pray for him.