-read the word
-pray
-talk to president of pc and dept. head
-finish brochure… or get close to finish as possible because i haven’t been given everything i need to finish by the client
-edit pictures
-go shoot more
-edit those (repeat)
-begin discipleship
-get a full time job
-spend time with people
-learn drums
hmm… i think that’s good for now
i have had the most awesome past two weeks.
and i do mean AWEsome.
God is amazing and has shown me so much.
i mean… i am about to make an insane decision and not continue at portfolio center.
and i am ok with that.
i think i will try to find a school that will be geared towards a more photojournalistic approach.
in the meantime, i will find a job to make money, continue shooting and try to find shoots here and there to keep me going, continue learning how to play drums and pursue participating in worship at my church… a lot of things i have been meaning to do.
this is a good thing.
i think i have been using school as a crutch to be creative and motivated.
i have forgotten why i started using my gifts in the first place.
i have forgotten why i am SUPPOSED to being using them… and HOW.
i have forgotten what it is to be passionate.
but God is faithful in reminding me of where i stand and who i am.
only because i continually pray and seek.
seek truth. (I Chronicles 16:11; John 17:17)
yeah. so that might sound crazy to some.
but man… i am really excited to get back to where i should be.
and that is to live my life to serve Him.
for quite some time He has been puting people in my life that i can’t even begin to describe…
and even in the past two weeks… i have seen Him work in this way.
especially last night(friday… my sleeping schedule is a little hectic right now).
well… i have needed them without me or them knowing it.
seriously… i thank God for my friends.
the people that know me beyond the surface.
the real people.
christian or non-christian.
you have been so encouraging to me.
the Holy Ghost has spoken through you.
so.
i am back in atlanta georgia at the apartment.
i just ate some loompia that my mom gave me when i left peecola. mmm. good.
and now that i am back… i feel weird.
i don’t know what i am going to do.
i am just praying for now, but i need to pretty much decide what i am going to do about school.
i just don’t think i want to continue anymore.
i mean… it’s a commercial art school. and now i think i am leaning toward photojournalism.
this is insane.
that albania trip really messed me up.
but in a good way.
i mean… it was well overdue.
and God showed me so much.
the albanian people have had to deal with way more than i could even imagine.
it makes me sick to my stomach.
we have so much as americans.
it’s really ridiculous.
they have nothing.
yet…
they have everything in that sense.
i admire that immensely.
so… now i want to just sell all my unnecessary stuff and get back to that.
having nothing.
it was amazing.
i didn’t want to come home to this.
busy life. full of stuff. things to do. places to go.
my life is full of things i really don’t need.
but there are things i do need.
things i need to be doing instead of thinking and talking about.
you know what i mean?
