life… it has its surprises…
ok….
so im workin a lot. good. i need money.
and i have lots of homework. good. i need to improve.
i love my family. my sis is visiting soon from VA. and i talked to my mom earlier this week. she got the teapot i sent her. and im going to visit my sis in the UK in late june. yeah! i can wait to go! i get my passport in a couple weeks. and my father is doing better with the dialysis stuff. i hope i get to visit my parents sometime next quarter… around early july…
i am still trying to read more. good. i need to expand my horizons.
i am not sleeping that much. good. sleep is overrated. and it means im getting crap done.
i am not starving. good. cuz i love to eat.
i have friends moving and visiting. good. atlanta is big enough for more!
i found this cool church up north of here. good. its great to be around people who actually are real.
things are good. i hope they stay good.
on another note…
for those of you that have no idea… i had an entry around march that had to do with this particular person in my life.
how i got really confused. how he was sending all these mixed signals. and this is part II.
my ex-fiancee called me two nights ago.
his girlfriend is leaving him late this month.
he doesnt know if he will be going to ireland to meet her there.
shes leaving because shes pissed off at him.
shes leaving because of me.
she thinks hes still in love with me.
he told me there hasnt been a day that i havent been on his mind.
he just pushes it down.
and when he cant take it anymore is when he calls.
thats about once or twice a month.
it used to be more frequent.
and its starting to get more frequent again.
i dont know what to say.
i will always love him.
and i will always be there for him because i am his friend until the day i die.
ive forgiven him a looooong time ago.
but i dont think i will ever be with him.
not if hes the same person he was.
and i dont think he has changed.
but who am i to judge.
people can change.
ive changed.
what is happening?
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You need to get more sleep. It isn’t overrated. If you’re having trouble going to sleep get 1000mg capsules of Valerian at a health food store. It works.
Reading more is good. Read something by David Sedaris. He is great and you will laugh out loud.
About the ex-fiancee: I say give him another chance. People do change, even if just slighly, and you say you’ve changed, so maybe it would be a good thing. You never know. But you have to do what you feel in your heart you have to do. What do you want? If you don’t know, then give it a shot.
Hope everything remains good!
mmmmm alaina, i love you
there is this song “goodbye lorraine” by frank black and the catholics, download it or IM me and i’ll send it to you because it sounds like your name and reminds me of you, dickface.
ps: getting married is for yokels
ha! ok i will download it.
i miss ya!