so tired…
im so tired of being nice.
im so tired of being me.
this is the weirdest ive felt in a while.
im tired of hearing of other people being so down.
im tired of heartbreak… be it my own heart or yours.
and while im on the subject, im tired or wearing my heart on my sleeve.
im tired of being programmed the way i have been.
i dont want to feel anymore.
i want to forget all the things that have happened sometimes…
i want to vacation from my brain.
i want to vacation from my heart.
and sometimes… yes… i want a vacation from my soul.
it hurts with the hurt of countless other people.
i want to stop being so freakin compassionate sometimes that it makes me want to cry…
no… i want to be hysterical!!!
i want to cry like im dying a slow painful death.
its all way too much.
lord, help me!
i cant even imagine what being jesus felt like.
im sure it was a thousand times worse than anything we can feel.
it must have hurt like hell…
i am weary.
i am tired.
sometimes i want to just disappear so i dont have to deal with anyone.
at all.
so maybe i will.
maybe its time for another “hermit season”.
so if you dont hear from me…
im sorry.
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fuck em all.
i want to vacation from my heart
you and i both
i miss you lady
LOVE YOU TONS
aww…
luv you too.
I’ve felt that way a thousand times, trust me!
I hate how I’m always so nice to people, it’s almost impossible for me to be mean. I’ve gone through tough times too trying to find myself, I think I’ve come pretty close, but I’m still growing and changing.